I’m Just A Girl

Can you imagine what Mary must have felt like?  I mean every girl i have ever known has at one point in time, if not a thousand times over, felt so ordinary. Misunderstood? At it’s finest. Have you ever been accused of something you didn’t do and felt defenseless? Embarrassed? Ashamed? Honored but without explanation? Have you ever had the Holy Spirit come upon you and questioned if it was really Him?  If you can answer yes to just one of these questions, try to put yourself in Mary’s shoes.

I have a 14 year old daughter. I cannot begin to comprehend the overwhelming emotion and responsibility being chosen of this magnitude would incur. Talk about the “glass house” syndrome on another level? Choice, but just ordinary.  Try to make sense of that…perfect example of “His ways are high above our ways.”

I am a mother. The joy, the weight, the extravagant love for my children is phenomenal. The trust i know that God has placed upon me to navigate without preconceived idea or personal limitation their purpose, is sometimes more than i feel like i can be a steward of. But to give birth to the Savior? I cannot in my wildest imagination, begin to fathom that.

We are all carriers of the King.

If you feel ordinary, remind yourself…He chose you.  Stop fighting it so hard.   If you’re a runner, stop running.  Embrace it.  We are all Mary’s of sort.  I know that responsibility is something that we shy away from.  However, you can’t hide from this one.  We are responsible to carry His name.  To take him into all the world.  And the beautiful thing is that His word says that we will do it in a “GREATER THINGS” way.

In case you missed it, yesterday i stood beside my daughters and sang these thoughts in a song, I’m Just A Girl.  Collin video’d it so it’s not professional, but will do.  (Click on that link at the top)  It was such a sweet moment for me.  I was eye witness and small participant in watching them take another step into themselves.  I imagine this is how our Heavenly Father feels when He stands on all sides of us and watches us embrace purpose and carry Him to the rest of His children who just aren’t aware yet that they are His.

There is a quote i love so very much, “I tried to be normal once, worst two minutes of my life.”  You are anything but normal.  Choice.

“Remember, our Message is not about ourselves; we’re proclaiming Jesus Christ, the Master. All we are is messengers, errand runners from Jesus for you. It started when God said, “Light up the darkness!” and our lives filled up with light as we saw and understood God in the face of Christ, all bright and beautiful. If you only look at us, you might well miss the brightness. We carry this precious Message around in the unadorned clay pots of our ordinary lives. That’s to prevent anyone from confusing God’s incomparable power with us. As it is, there’s not much chance of that. You know for yourselves that we’re not much to look at. We’ve been surrounded and battered by troubles, but we’re not demoralized; we’re not sure what to do, but we know that God knows what to do; we’ve been spiritually terrorized, but God hasn’t left our side; we’ve been thrown down, but we haven’t broken. What they did to Jesus, they do to us—trial and torture, mockery and murder; what Jesus did among them, he does in us—he lives! Our lives are at constant risk for Jesus’ sake, which makes Jesus’ life all the more evident in us. While we’re going through the worst, you’re getting in on the best!” 2 Corinthians 4:5-12 MSG

Xo,

Steph